"If God had a face, what would it look like?" Kaylee Is suggesting I call matt and see what HE'S doing for fireworks tonight. haha..haha I wish! But he also said he'd call me this week and he never did, even though I was at camp...um...okay... but still! I 'm too scared. hm...I wonder what london is doing? I found out today my cousin got in a bad accident in montana. she's in the hospital now, everyone pray for her. man oh man. the thing is, I had a feeling I shouldnt of gone. and, I would of never made it to camp if I would of gone with them. oh! camp! it was so much fun! we all bonded, I was youth leader, and I loved all my little ones soo much. this morning though I woke up to three cows mooing at eachother. all in different pitches of course... oy. but it was great. Whitney threw up all over her sleeping bag and pillow. me and Nicole cleaned her up, it was...great. she was freezing so we huddled up to her to give her body heat while we waited for the camp leaders and preisthood holders. It was amazing, I wish everyone could feel the way I feel all the time, with the spirit with me. but, I wont go into too depth with that, its something personal to me, not for a public online journal! wooo. mmmmm I missed my pit badly. I'm sure thomas wasnt the greatest leader. I had a dream I was snuggling with him. He was just holding me. It felt nice to be held. teehee. "cuz, I would runaway" I love the corrs. anyways, about thomas. He is a cutie, but nothing is going to happen. I wouldnt do that to Azya, and plus, its thomas. now mike in the pit... no...its not the same as thomas. he's also a year younger than me and taken by about a million girls. but I still like it when he poses peter pan for me. oh, my, I'm swooning over a pit boy. that hasnt happened since... ITs cool too look back on last year. greg in his boxers giggling at me. thomas rubbing my back as I cried because I was in crampal pain. (cute kid) and I thought It was creepy. but...oh, I should really see the intentions of people. its hard. yeah yeah. I'm kinda sad about this whole firework thing. sara will be with derek this year. and... prolly be together when me and sara's song comes on. mmm... but, I get to see my drumline tomorrow. thats my love affair for now. sad, huh?! teehee! but, hey, it will get me better. and I really have improved! I rock! teehee, camp gave me a new boost of selfconfidence. yay! I helped the little girls, it was the best! yay! mmmm my head kinda hurts. well... I'm excited for mike to come back in the pit. I love him soo. and I talked to my boss today and repented for missing work the week of efy and she only schedualed me for wednesday! which is perfect because jd is coming next week! and band ends for a month. then drum camp! 12 hours with my pit! yay! well...im excited. I'm sure they're not. but i am. and I have to beat thomas for being a retarded leader while I was gone. mmm I love life. tiss good. I went over to the woodwards house. the bishop said I looked like a completly new person. all cleaned up. seeing that at camp my hair was on the top of my head and I smelt of boy. teehee me and megan ran away to her room and ate oreos!