Well, I just read everyone's diaries! Wow! Drama is really unnecissay. That's why I want to get out of highschool. But yet, I love it all the same. I finaly feel good again. Feel ME again, which is important and things are going swell. I hope it lasts throughout the rest of the year. I think mainly it's because my attitude about home has changed. I realized that It was me who was unhappy. I was the one causing most of the contention. We're making it work. Today, we even did scripture study...as a family! I'm still standing in shock. I'm happy. I hate my job. Well, I was supposed to have the days of the play at least off. oh, I didn't get them off. Guess who's not going in to work!? That's me! That's me! I can't wait until I can escape that prison cell. I guess I just need to get in the normal cycle of life again. I love doing joseph though, it's such a thrill! Goodness, I feel good and I feel like I have...a more well rounded group of friends. Actually, I don't really have a group. Why should I? I'm more of a one on one kind of person. Which gets me introuble when it comes to doing stuff with malcolm. *rolls eyes* Liz knows I don't like groups. Yet it limits the time I get to spend with him. Heh, I see him at school! When it's one on one you never have to worry about someone feeling left out or yourself feeling left out. But it can also be VERY awkward. wow, I'm trailing off. Yes, life. I'm accomplishing my goal. I'm getting to know poeple this year. At least I can say I talked to that person. I'll never see them out of highschool, but at least I tried. People never realize what impact they can have on others. Not that I'm saying I'm saving lifes. It's quite the opposite. I'm learning from people I'd never expect to learn from. Crazy! Like Daniel. Wow...wow...okay. I love Sundays! Um, my valentine's day was sure special. Hah, Daniel felt really bad that he had last my write up. I'm still stuck on the idea that he should just take me out to make up for it. I should really bring this up to Bro Krebs. I can't just flirt myself to a date, I have to get my seminary teachers involved. Hey, It's how I got to know matt! (speaking of, he called me last night...I couldn't go but he thought of me!) Yeah... Then I had the house to myself, which was a bit lonely. Whatever. Malc came and got me and we laughed the whole way to his house. Can I say I have found the male version of myself? na, It's not true. He gave me a rose and a card and this curious little ball he made out of cardstock. I am amazed by it! Inside hanging on a little heart in the center are pictures of us. We both have dorky smiles on our faces. I don't think they have ever caught my real smile on camera. We watched "you'll find her one day, Charlie Brown" Then we played with my puppy Jack. I'm still working on mum to let me keep him! I love him so much! Malc had to keep them out of the road. He told me he's excited to have kids. "get out of the road, son!" This kid... Then he took me home. He gave me a big hug and we talked for a while on my porch. TAlked about the people we want to go out with. WE talked about me leaving for college. About marriage. He said he doesn't think he'll find another girl like me. No, not likely, but he'll find someone better for him. We talked about going on missions, we both want to serve so bad! WE'd have our homecomings around the same time. He thinks I'll get married within a year out of highschool. Um, no thank you!I asked him if it really is possible for two people to love eachother so much that they want to spend eternity together. Obviously it's true, but they all seem so unhappy. It's our job, our obligation to defeat the impossible. It was a great night. I felt kind of bad though because I thought kaylee wanted to do something with me. But, she ended up not calling me. Well, I didn't call her either. We never see each other anymore. sad day. Maybe we like eachother more this way?! Wow, that was so bold. Anyhoo, love your hair by the way honey! The color suits your dynamic personality and flair. Anyhoo. ... yeah... sara is in town and I'm hopping that she wants to see me before she leaves me again. I want to have a sleep over (I'll never grow up!) with her and watch pride and prejudice and giggle. Mom said its not a good idea to sleep over there because he brother is home off his mission. She probably wants to spend time with him anyways.