I like some constants in my life. I have a list even. I like spontanious-ness, but sometimes being orginized isn't all that bad. I'm discovering this, thank you. I'm the secretary for my laurels class and a promise was given to me. I love my bishop. Next week is our chat. hmm! It's so strange, this ward business. I adore all the young women. We're all so different and I think that's why we get along. Without them I could never go on in this butt-lovely life. IT is quite a paridise. I love that shannon calls me to play vollyball. And me and Amber (my beehive!) are going to have a play-date. I'm going to teach her how to curl her hair like mine. Me and jill express our frustrations. I love my ward. The boys are alright too. Beau talks to me all the time. He seems intereted. We talked about marching band and working out. He thinks we're crazy, so does scott. And! oh! this is new! Scott sided with me! well...I'll take what I can! He told beau how much the marching band works. Oh, he listens when I talk to him. It was just me and those two in Sunday school...again. But, I don't mind! Anyways. My night was a ...lame. I did study for a while. and caught up in my REM sleep. which is not really good when I'm studying. I really need to get the chapter learned for my test tomorrow and I know jamming isn't going to help. bah. I waited until midnight for malcolm to call. I was greatly dissapointed. But, hey! He's beautiful, funny, and nice...And he could be all mine. The beauty of it, from my eyes (which are the only eyes that count)we're friends who like eachother. simplicity. oh bliss. Hey, something has to keep me going sometimes! And I have found I can't be so dependent on someone else. Which is sad. I miss my friend. I was told once that I look at my problems lightly and I just avoid them. so what? Everytime I confront them they just get worse! Not better! well, occasionaly... "I'll stand by you" Anyways, talking to landenbuddy always makes me feel so good about myself. It's nice to have that guy. He'll never have feelings for me, and like he would tell me if he did! I love Sundays. I want to talk to Bree badly. I'll do that, then study. haha!