He was nice...until he opened his mouth. What is wrong with me? sigh, life is everchanging. drumline in the morning! woot! I found a dress perfect for kacean! I was so excited so I called her, but she went to the game. i smell like tommy boy. it reminds me of matt. I sure do like matt. and so does the rest of the world. Including most of my friends. They all know him better than I do too. He doesnt call me like he calls them though. that's lame. maybe If I wasnt so awkward. It makes me sad, he's one thats worth my time. oh, oh man. I was pretty sad when he called kaylee and they played. then rach. and I hear it all the time that they think he's cute. well, duh, I know! ...and all these thoughts tubble out just from a smell. sigh, if only he knew... ha, if he knew he'd be scared. "the smile on your face lets me know that you need me" I had a fun time tonight. the movie was lame and long. but it was fun to be with my friends. me and sara went shopping and stuff. found a lady whos giving us her old prom dresses. then visited my cousin. and she introduced me to someone she works with. who then later asked for my number. I asked him if he was accepting of other people. he said he was very much so. good. I want to go to bed I want to sleep and not wake up for drumline. lame. yaying drumline. I want ...I dont know what I want. I had nice dreams last night. I think, well, they werent as scary and frightning and sad. I think spencer was chasing me, in a good way. haa. I like spencer. sigh, today we sang the efy medley! and danielle sang for devotional. I love the way I live. I love the fact that I get to choose who I am, who I love, who to follow. its like what clark says. they best way to be a good leader is to be a good follower. I hate being leader... I love my seminary class already. I know its where i need to be. I feel close and not so lost in this lame world of scary stalker boys and overdramatic teenage girls. "I will love you, until my dying days" ...I've already got his wardrobe pattern down. I think I like the blue the best. I really should go to bed, and sleep for a while. not wake up till I have to... I want to get in my jammies and just lay there in nothingness until I WANT to get up. mmm.... "want to vanish inside your kiss" I'm scared of giving myself away and getting hurt again. that's what's wrong with me... apart from all the other stuff. hmmm...