I supossedly have a date with josh in about 15 minutes. I ...was told to call him. but, if he's the one making the plans he'll call me. I hate calling people. gah...IT's hard to call clark...but i have to! man oh man.. he gives me another chance to flippen get bass...and auditions are the same week I leave for Arizona. Mum said I could just not go. I know how dissapointed Amy would be. and my family IS more important that beating josh at MY bass drum. ahem. but we haad a sectional today. I left way early to get my nails done. not like it was a big deal... haha. I tried helping one girl. I forgot her name. I love her already. no matter how badly she sucks she still plays up and loud! ahhhhh! I love the determined ones! she'll do soooooo good. Now I have to prepare to break it to clark. I guess I could give it up, but I know we'll work it out. Wherever I go...I'll go...I just need to know where to go so I can put ALL OF ME into it. I'll...just be extra happy if I make it. yay! well...gosh...I'm in such an irritable mood. hormones...woo. I ate lunch with Malcolm and James today. I couldn't find anyone...and Malcolm found himslef at my class room door after 5th. we laughed the whole time, those guys are hilarious! we talked about swallowing pins and spit wads. I must say It's refreshing to talk about choking than the normal girl drama. yes...it was nice. They're such...guys...though. gross, some things they say I'm like "whoah....." then me and malcolm and jerry and kace and kevin went to the assembly. I'm so mad Jill didn;t make it! I finaly found someone who loves the earth so much that she'll promote it on earth day! stupid... but...I really like the turn out of it anyways. Scott made it, and Isaac! yayayayayayyaya! I ran and gave isaac a huge hug. he told me he heard me when I yelled "I love my cherry flavored life saver!" hmm, good times. yeah... I got my nails down. I have no idea if this is the color of my dress...but..I loved the name of the polish. "love stinks" haha, I laughed so boisterously. well, my date isn't here yet...I guess I should call him. naa...I'll call him at 6...thats a good time...yeah... Mark called me and asked if I'm going. He told me he didnt want me to be dateless tomorrow. what a goofy stud...in the middle of a sentence he said "hold on..." and then proceeded to yell at his dad saying "I'M ON THE PHONE DAD...!" yeah...what a dork. it was a nice thought though. oh the phones ringng, maybe it's josh...haha... oh! it was Clark! mmm. hopefully things will work out. I let josh know how much I wanted it today...i took his drum out and set it up for him. I'm so sweet like that sometimes...muhahaha. gosh...why hasn't my date called me yet? this is odd... I got a call from Big J's. They want to know if I still want an interview. hm...I guess an interview wont hurt. and I DO need a job. plus, I have friends who work there... oh my words... the boy stopped by rehearsals today. I talked to him a bit. apparently he came by just to check it out. Does he really have nothing else to do? man oh man...There are tons more prettier girls in this world...why does he choose me? heh, whatever...I'll go with it. I know if he really starts following me around I'll turn around and bash on him...or at least avoid him... but he's not bad. heh. my seminary lesson was amazing. mmm...oh hey my date finaly called. "do you want to do something" "...sure..." man oh man. I pray for a man 6 years down the road who can plan things himself. I have totaly planned prom... must...be...positive..