Wow, it's been a long time since I've written here. wooo! So, I'm home until April and I'm not trying to find a night job just incase my day job doesn't work out too well. I'll be substitute teaching during the day, but I don't know if I'll get a lot of work. wow, so I find myself day dreaming a lot. IT's sad. I do it almost constantly. I play senerios in my head...I usually snap out of them when I feel myself smiling and my head starts slipping to the side. Today mum informed me that I need to get off my butt and start working... I also finished my letter to matt ( he's been gone for a month now!)We're pretty close between our letters. The self-disclosure level is now at the 4th and deepest level- feelings. Haha, not that we talk about our feelings for each other. heaven's we're JUST friends, but I'm glad he shares his feelings about his mission with me. I'm so proud of him. He's pretty neat! I then went job hunting with mark today. Haha. We're nuts together. Sigh, I wish I were older...just for him. I feel like it's my fault my friends don't like him. I don't nicely about him. well, yeah...we'll see. We ran around smithfield picking up job applications. that kid kills me! yeah...