oh bother. oh booger and brains. Why oh why. yes complaining won't help the problem. The only reason why people complain is to...get attention. yes. It doesn't make the problem better, only worse. I read all about in pshycology. I really do love that class. oh me oh my. I... have to work on wednesday! gah! she said that I had to because everyone else had signed off that day. goodness! I'm so stupid, why didn't I sign it off? grrrrrrrrrrr!! mmm...she said I could get it off till 5:45. are you kididng me? gah! well, you know what? I'll live. oh my... I really need Aubers right now. that girl. wow. I really want to skate right now. It's a need. matt called me tonight and asked me to go with him and the kids. I wanted to. stupi d work. stupid money. hmm. he said he'd call again. life keeps going. it will be okay. oh my. I can scarcly breathe. I'm scared to tears. I went to the park. babysitting my brothers. (I could hardly consider him otherwise.) and Mars. It was fun. I was off by myself. just thinking. mmm, in the shade by the water with my dear new friend, the catipillar. it was so dear. it was perfect nearly. I could stay at the moment forever. I'll jot it down and never forget it. I figured out how much I wish I was just a little kid again. and how the world views teenagers as these hormonal, uncontrolable animals. really, I'm not. I realized that it is just highschool and much is drama. which is rather stupid. I don't even know what I'm saying now. I hate how I don't understand. goodnight