agh, not liking myself. stupid stupid stupid. well, not realizing for the first time that im a brat...just...yes. went to school, heh. passed matt cook in the hall and that quote from clueless popped in my head "never date a guy who dresses better than you..." ohmygosh...I need a life. so that was over with in ten seconds. classes are so boring now, nothing to do. listen to lauren go on and on about hot hot someone is, and reed on the other side of me telling me his babysitting stories. In english it was sort of quiet, we went into the library. I sat on andy's table with emi and started reading, but she was going off. loudly. meh, need sleep. fourth hour was okay, got my part down for phantom of the opera and talked to megan about pit. yay for crummy pit. but hey, I'm in it, and probably will be in it senior year too "oh...we needed a strong player..." gosh. so I'll have to make the best of it somehow. ignore the whining. bed them please to make it worthit. ahh... 5th hour was good. nothing really happened. it was a good lesson though. learned something about kissing. hmmm, yum. then after school i begged mom to take me to the store, byt the time i got home my ride had left me so mom took me to work. yay, nothing big happened there either. made friends with Eddy. he's cool we sat alone on the round table looking out the window. me, eating my soup in a cup and him drinking a pop. it was nice to be quiet and peacefull. found out Jordon made out with Amber saturday around 3 am. heck boy... mmm oh, my back is bleeding...hmm. I showed jerry at work how to iceskate on the suddy sanitary foam. muah, he looked at me and rolled his eyes and said "look what i've got myself into." :) then me and derek sorta sang music of the night. well, we were both humming it very off tune. and tiff just stared at us. then i went home! and walked in right at the hottest part of phantom of the opera, my moms new fav. movie. so, it was perfect. I spilled on her how I'd never find anyone like rouol. and asked her if that was how love really was. and she sighed... but i asekd her to stop...please, let me find out by myself... I told her I don't want anything like amy and todd. and I'll prolly end up with a fat guy who makes me cook for him all the time ...and never gives me hugs. sigh, i like hugs. I havent seen my sara in a while, or really talked to her. havent really talked to anyone for a while. but she did remind me that she was my friend on saturday. I liked it. a lot. I'm kind of in my own world of work and food right now. gah, but no work again till thrusday! and frieday i get my mocho pay check that will at least be... 7x35=.... that much, too tired to do the math. night.