The stench of the house is just making it worse. I hate living in a stinky house. bah. I've been sick all day. yay. school was alright I guess. It was the vetrens day assembly. It was soo good! I got to play the show again, wow. I can't help buy play loud, I LOVE IT! I went to kaylee;s house and she took care of me. I took a nap and she fed me. Then landen came and they took me home. Landen offered to carry me to my door. Hey, It just might be meant to be. He's one guy I can be absolutly hideaous (hence, today) infront of and he stil loves me. Deep...deep down. They stayed and we talked for a while. Then I threw up...and they left. sad day. I cancelled my plans with eddy. I guess it's okoay though because his car broke down. I want to go to the party relaly bad but I feel awful. I've been looking forward to this for a long long time though. I really should stay home though. oh bother. I feel sick again. I don't know what's wrong with me. I haven't taken my meds yet today. They just make me sicker. But, my back hasn't hurt for a long time now. I think the infection is almost gone. Seminary was amazing. I love that class so much. We're close yet...not. It's neat though! We sang the EFY song! we stood in a circle and linked arms. I got between zach and david! I belted out my heart, for a moment I wasn't sick. I looked around the room. my favorite place. That's it! oh joy! I need to write those soon! We swayed and sang! I looked over at that boy who's as short as me. He looked back at me. for a moment it was heaven. It must be great there. I love it so much. love love love. don't let go. Don't turn back. stay with me.