Hey, so today was pretty good. During chapel, me and Katie were writing notes, and she wrote something that really made me think...She said she envied me a lot because my life is so perfect, and I have a great boyfriend, and everything about my life seemed so perfect...I didn't even know what to say when I wrote back...This isn't the first time someone has said this to me..and that's why it's been on my mind all day... A lot of people, like my friends, think I am soo strong and on top of things and basically what Katie wrote...And I think "Wow, if you only knew". Not that my life is horrible, but there's things that go on behind closed doors that people don't see...I've always been so cautious of who I let enter my life...The only person that knows me inside and out is Tiffani, and even she thinks I'm really strong...But I am really weak..Like, at school, I feel so lonely. I mean, I have soo many friends, but everyone already has their group, and I'm just kind of there...I'm so insecure it's not even funny. I don't want to say I'm fake, or a hypocrite so what am I? I'm just so afraid to let people see my weaknesses that I put on this strongness I guess..I don't know but it really got to me... Anyways, Randi let me drive her mustang tonight!! Her dad taught me how to drive it because it's a stick-shift...It was sooo awesome..And the noise and feeling you get when you revv it up to move..oh man it sounds soo good. Anyways, it's 10:30...I best get to bed x3