Okay, so he called me when I got home from church, and I told him I didn't care how late it was, I wanted to see him tonight. We'll see how that goes. He said he'd see depending on how late it was. I've been so I dunno, I guess stressed with him gone. I asked him how much he drank last night he said "Not much, I wasn't in the mood." But see, lying can go far because I wasn't there, how would I know? See? = Worries me. Once he's home, I think I'll be okay because I'll know what he's doing. Not that I don't really trust him, but...how much trust can you put into a two month relationship? I mean, if we have been dating like 6 months I'd feel more comfortable saying "Don't drink like that." But giving it's only been two months...I don't think I'm at liberty to control what he does yet. Not control, but have a firm say so in. And it's not that I don't trust him, I do. And that kind of...puts me on the edge. He should home by 11. = I'll see him definitely tomorrow if not tonight, but I so wish that tonight I'll be able to see him. He'll never even fully understand how crappy my week has been, and how bitchy I've been to people. And how much time I've spent just sitting in the chair worrying about where he was, what he was doing, if he was drinking, what if his ex was around, etc. -Sigh- I'm just waiting. I'll stay up until he says he can't come over. How ever long that will be I dunno, but I'll stay up all night just if I can see him. ]=