I'm not gonna tell you why it's been so long. But it has been forever. Just a few basic things : I'm grounded for life, I'm still with tc. My mom doesn't trust me, but I'm working on that. There's been so much drama since TC, Jake & Lis got kicked out of school. And it's still going on here two months later. I'm not exactly the person I thought I would be, but I'm happy and being with TC is (: He's so sweet and he still makes me blush after 3 months of pure hell from everyone. We're still strong, I'm in love, and none of that is going to change soon, I know it's not. I've come to hate Lis with every ounce of me really. I mean, I'm not going to be mean when I'm forced to hang out with her, but gah. I fucking hate her, and who she is and I wish TC would stop being her little servant. She just uses him to see Jake. And that's not his fucking problem. Or mine. She's the biggest flirt, everyone can see it, and I wish Jake would just get over whatever it is with her. I honestly trust Hailey more with my secret than I would with Lis. And if I told any of the three of them that, they seriously would hate me. It's whatever though because today I told TC i did not like her at all. Hopefully that'll get through his damn head. God. Anyways, I just needed to get that out. I'm so tired of life and like today in the shower (where I think best) I was thinking like about what life really means. What is the point of life really? I mean, when I was like in the fifth grade, I would watch the juniors and seniors and think "Wow, they've got it all. The looks, clothes, friends, life. They know what they want." And now, it's like, I'm here...and what I saw back then doesn't even exist. I'm not who I'd thought I'd be when I got to where they are. It's so weird sometimes, growing up, I guess. But, anyways. <3