So, today was so...awkward at first. Like, last night I cried because I didn't know if I'd done the right thing. And this morning I was fine until I heard this song driving on the way to school and I started crying again. I tried to hold it in but I couldn't. So I get to school with puffy eyes. I tried to play it like I was okay, but once I saw him I thought the world was ending. Him without me didn't seem right. I got through the first three periods and we hardly said a word to each other. Finally, I got to 4th period and it all came out. I sat down in front of Maggie and just let it all out. She just sat there and talked to me about stuff. So, I went over to the library to see Mrs. Lawson and she helped me and talked to me. So, I went back to class and wrote him a note asking him if we could hang out and talk before his game. He said it was cool. So, I was fine until I got to freetime and me and Sarah were sitting there and he was playing basketball and I guess I was watching him and she had been telling me a story she goes "ALMA. STOP and listen to me" I looked at her I was like "I miss him" and started tearing up again. Aghh. It was horrible. Almost painful. I thought I was okay last night and that I could make it but today was like...I dunno. He wasn't there at my locker when I got to school...he didn't sit with me in freetime..And seeing him not with me was...]= Little stuff that I never payed any attention to got me today. So, then after school he was sitting in the bleachers and I went to join him, and all these guys just piled around us. So Jake finally looked at me and I was like "LEAVE!" So he was got everyone to leave. And then I finally got the nerve up to talk to him about stuff. And it was good. He told me he just wanted me to be happy. [Awh] And it felt really good to get everything out. I told him I was gonna give it a few weeks or a week atleast to just think everything through and take a step back. I don't wanna go back out with him because my emotions want me to be with him. I don't wanna hurt him again. If things don't work out now, maybe later? I dunno, but I miss me and him being together! And I don't want to see him with any other girl...I just want everything to be okay. So, I'll write tomorrow probably. =