Well, last night we talked on the phone like normal, but i was so distant and i felt so bad for treating him like that. I barely had two words to say the whole time i just giggled here and there, said a few words here then there...I felt bad.

This morning i woke up and i still feel bad. I feel like we broke up. I dreamed that too. But i called him to tell him i love him and good morning and stuff before work.

:( Right now i just want to see him. Not in secret, or with sex involved...I just wanna be in his arms and cuddle:(

What is wrong with meee.