I'm not going to sit here and tell you how I feel today because it's the same as yesterday. So, today at the gym I ran into Lisa and we did the stairs together, which made me sweat lol. Tomorrow I'm going to the gym, but I added some things to my routine so I'm going to start staying there for probably two hours. [= Yeah, but today Jake told me he was coming to church and I was like "Oh..okay." And yup, he came. Just added more drama to my daily life, because what happened when I got home was precise. But I'll get there in a second. Yeah, and I was already having a personal meltdown so I didn't want to babysit him at church. Before we left for church I just cried. Over him. And not because anything happened...just because really. I really bitched out at Tiffani man, but she totally like understands me. Whenever I'm like that she just lets me go on and on and she'll argue with me because she knows its what I need. Yeah, I love her. But anyways, I was okay once I got to church. But Jake, gah, I felt bad because I hardly talked to him at all, and OH. Yeah, well Cliff was by Taylor's car next to my car, so I was like "Hey." And I made some conversation, and then Jake's car was next to ours and Jake wanted a hug and I kind of pretended like I didn't notice then he tapped me and was like "Hug?" So I was like "Oh sure.." And I gave him a quick hug. |= And I really hope Cliff like didn't see that. Yeah, so I was like "Okay, bye." And I walked off. Yup, so about when I got home. I knew Wesley was going to go home and tell Brandon I had a guy with me and Brandon was going to call me. And that's what he did. He called me. I didn't answer. Well, I knew that Brandon would call Wesley and tell him to 3-way me and that's what happened, because usually Wesley calls me from his cell, but he can only 3-way on his house phone. So he called me from his house. I didn't answer. [= Yaa. I did talk to them tonight, but they are like little girls. Me and Sarah used to do that when we were in like 5th grade. Anyways. I'm really excited to go to the gym tomorrow. And tomorrow, I'm going to try to be carefree, and try not to think about Cliff. = Yeah, but I'm calling it a night.. The nights get lonely And all I have left is a memory of you I tried to say this But now there's nothing left for me to do... Please don't go, just stay I watched with tears in my eyes As you walked away Miss your voice, and your touch And if I told you I loved you Could that be enough?.. ...And I lay sleepless Knowing that my heart still belongs to you ...And tonight I'll stay home and miss you More than you'll ever know