So, tonight was very....unwordable. It started, you know, I had my doubts today and worries. Got home, we were supposed to meet at 5:30 to record. Ended up changing the time until 7:45. Then 7:00. So, around 7:00 we all met, well me and Cliff were there before Zack and he said something about how work was going to be bad, but he'd talk to me later about it. I didn't really think much about it though. Well, we recorded the songs, and they do sound good. Then I had privately asked him if he wanted to come over to watch a movie. So, after we made the CD, we went to the Mexican restaurant and ate. And he started the conversation. I'm going to try and type everything I can remember just like it was said. He was like "When I get back from Tennessee, work is going to speed up, and I'm going to have to start working Monday through Saturday, 12 hour shifts." I was like "Oh.." And he was like "Yeah...I just..I don't know about how we're going to make that work." He said, "I will hardly ever get to see you and hanging out is going to be hard, and I just don't want to hurt you at all, Alma." He was like, "You are seriously, such an awesome person. I never thought I would date so young, but there's just something about you." And he kept saying stuff. And I just sat there. I didn't even touch my food. And finally, I was like "Okay, about a year ago, I met this guy, and he was out of school, and we had something going between us. He always promised he'd wait on me until I got out of high school. And ended up, I had to find him with another girl, because he couldn't wait for me." I said, "Cliff, I like you, a lot. But, a lot of the times, I'm really insecure because, you are 20. You have your life before you and you can do whatever you want. You could move back to Tennessee, you could date anyone. I mean, I'm sure a lot of your friends have been married, or are engaged, and if it was me, I'd be thinking 'When will it be my turn?' And I'm really insecure about that, and you can't say anything to me that you'll wait because words are cheep." And I was like, "And maybe you're a little insecure thinking 'She's in high school and there's so many guys around her', but I'm not the kind of girl that dates around. When I like somebody, I like them." And then I was like "I like you a lot, Cliff, and even if through all this work, it would be tough for us, I would try my hardest to help things, and be there." And he said "Alma, I like you a lot too, and I want things to work out too.." And he said something else, and I said "But, let me ask you...Being that all of this is happening, would you really wait for me until I finished school?" And he took a moment to think, and he said "Alma, I've never met anyone like you, and I'm serious when I say that. The things I've heard you say, and the things you do, they amaze me." And he said some other stuff, and then he said "Alma, yes I would wait for you." And we talked some more, and it ended really good. I said "Do you remember that first time we talked and I told you, that you can never have something amazing, unless you give it a chance?...I'm willing to take this chance with you because I like you that much. I'm willing to work harder and do all of this around your work." And he said "Yeah, I just don't want to hurt you, but I am willing too." And we finished eating, kind of small talk about things, and when we got outside before we got in the car, he pulled me close to him and kissed me and said "Good talk in there, I think things will turn out good." And I said "I'm definaly good with that." And we got in the car and came home and watched Mr. Brooks. Which was really good. Then we slept for a while and he left around 1:30ish. It was a long night, but things worked out for the good. At least we talked it out. I'm glad we did. I hope things work out too, because he's an amazing guy, and I'd hate to lose him. [= < And besides the high light of my day ^^, this Friday was very good for me. School was good, and we were all silly. It was like 90 degrees. The sun was out, I looked good. I bought me Yes Yes perfume, which smells really good. I finished the song I wrote and titled it Home. The band la la loves it. We recorded those song, which sound good, and I'm getting them on myspace soon. Jeez, today just turned out to be good. Hopefully tomorrow will be just as well, too. Anyways, 2 AM here...I'm out. [=