Okay, so, when we're not in church, everything seems fine, right? And even last night was good. But then, last night he didn't get online, and I'm not sure why. And he usually does. He didn't call me at all today, and he usually does. We hardly said 10 words tonight at church. I tried, but it always seems like he tries not to acknowledge me. He won't go out of his way to say something to me, I have to do it. And tonight we were going to practice and my mom wanted to go, and he would usually offer to bring me home, but he didn't. And, so, a lot of the times, I think Zack talks about me to him and even though Cliff said no, I bet they went out tonight and planned on not telling me. I told him I'd talk to him tonight, but if he doesn't get online, I'll know something really is up. I hate times like this. Tomorrow is going to suck because I am like this. I over analyze his every move towards me, and when I get used to things and then he doesn't do something, I'm going to get super stressed about it. I won't eat now. I'll be really worried. I had to go out a get me Starbucks to make me feel better. I can't keep being like this because Starbucks gets expensive. I've worked up what I'm going to say to him, because I want to know. I mean, I know we decided to keep it down low at church, but jeez, he could at least be the first to say "Hello." If he doesn't get online, I'm not sure what I'll do. I'll probably go to bed and not sleep and get up tomorrow and not eat. I probably won't do my hair in the morning. I won't be able to talk to anyone because I'm going to be nausea. And I really don't care if him and Zack go out without me. But he could tell me that. He didn't even offer to bring me home. -sigh- Oh, well, he just signed on, which means he didn't go out with Zack. So, I can feel better about that. But I'm going to let him IM me first. He should anyways. I'll see how long it will take him. It's 9:34. Anyways, I'm going to be like "So, is everything okay? Because you seemed kind of distant tonight." And then I'll see what he says. I know if there's a problem, he'll be straight up. And he won't lie and say everything is okay if it's not. Just have to wait for him to IM me first. -sigh- I know if things end up not working out, it's probably best. But I like him a lot, and I'd hate to see it not work out. Okay, when he IMs me and I talk to him, I'll either edit this entry, or make another one. Oh. He just IMed me. [9:39] Just talking. Nothing big. I'll wait for the right time to ask...It's going good. See? When we're not in church he'll talk away. I don't understand ya'll. Anyways, it's going good now. I guess I'll just deal with it. Niight.