This past weekend was another fun fun fun weekend. Tilicia had a lock in at her church and me and Sarah went. So, I met all these cool new people and a bunch of guys I'm still talking to haha. But yeah, these two guys. And then there's that Josh guy, but I don't know about him lol. Anyways. I'm really just fed up with Cliff and I'm seriously meeting a bunch of guys right now, and I feel like I can't talk to them because he wants me to wait for him to come home in like a year. He told me he wants to keep me close as a friend but I don't understand his definition of a close friend. He never calls me or messages me or texts me. Nothing. I always do it first. But as of Sunday, me and Sarah are not going to contact our boys at all. We're going to see how long it takes them to contact us. So, yeah. And I have been so tempted to call him or message him. But I know I shouldn't. I just feel bad that I'm letting go of him. And maybe I feel a little dumb because he's probably already let go, and I'm just now letting go of him. But he's just not being fair and he owes me more than what he's giving me. And a lot of the times I think he's lying to me. For like the past two weeks different things have been happening. Twice now, we were going to hang out and then he just doesn't call or anything. But that night he'll get online and tell me things came up and he couldn't. A few times now he's said he's sent me a message or tried to call and neither have come to me. I have caller ID. So, I'm just really fed up with him. But. On a good side. I'm having a blast being with my friends. We hang out so much now, and I'm meeting so many new people. And talking to a bunch of guys. Not like a hoe, but just you know, talking. Meeting them and stuff. It's fun, and now I don't feel like I'm waiting on Cliff. I'm taking my own turn doing my own thing. -sigh- Life is good right now. I'm happy. I'm finding myself in all of this, and it feels great. [= Update later [=