Hey, well, today was okay. I dunno, like I keep thinking about what all Cliff and me talked about. And I guess I'm just afraid of losing him is all. I mean, I know he likes me, and he knows I like him and all. But, what if he's just keeping me around until someone older comes along? I don't see him being at all like that, but you never know what someone might do. And I'm just afraid that I'm going to get hurt. I've been hurt a few times, and I've kind of set up a wall. And I'm being vulnerable by letting him in, trusting he won't hurt me, ya know? And letting him in just leaves a door open for him to leave. He's just so amazing, that I'm serious : what if there is no one else out there like him. F'real kay? We talked before he left for the gym. We were talking about working out and I was like "I need to get in shape myself!" And he was like "You're pretty to me already." I was like "Awh, well thanks." And he's not a sweet talker just to get my attention. But he is thoughtful. And he is taking me out after church tomorrow for dinner. Friday is band practice. Then Saturday we're going to get together to record some of my other songs I have. I hope it turns out good. >>> Yo, so last night Kim was like "So you and Cliff like each other?" I was like "I don't really wanna talk about it. No offense, honestly." And I left it at that. Then Betony was like "Tell me about you and Cliff." And she said everyone has been telling her about it. I'm just like "Dude.." But I didn't say anything to her. I was just like "We're friends." It's crazy, man. F'real. Anyways, it's kind of weird because when we're at church, Cliff doesn't really...acknowledge me. Like he sits with me and stuff, but he won't really talk directly with me. I'm not sure why. Maybe he just doesn't want people to know? I really don't know. I want to try to figure that out though. But like, Sunday he did that, but once we left he was all talk and just laid back and stuff. And once the band left too, he would hold me in his arms and stuff. So, maybe he's just one of those guys that like to keep the touchy feely stuff in private. And I'm fine with that lol. Anyways, he went to the gym, he might be home soon, I'm not sure. But I'ma be around, kay?