is it sad that i love how my mom and i have completely opposite schedules, so we're never home at the same time. and even if we re its only enough time to say goodnight or good morning? because i hate how she can ruin my day with her stupid opinions about how i should live my life. i just hate spending time with my mom. i hate it.

and its like, so many times, i will be so mad at her, but i always always always do whatever the heck she wants. she'll go cry or whatever in another room, and i always give in and break the ice and tension.

i absolutely love my life. ive had a greaaat day. five minutes with her and we're fighting and im pissed off. i cant stand it. i cant stand to be around her sometimes. and she's the only person ima see tonight cause me and josh didn't hang out and now my whole day is stupid. it'd be easy to forget about it if i didnt have to see her and spend all this time with her alone. but its inevitable. this is why i like my days full and my nights busy.

she said tonight, cause we were talkin about my grades in spanish. and she goes "your failing because im not enforcing good grades. you always tend to mess up when im not in your life because you need me." shes dumb. i said "i dont need you, you just want me to need you." she threatened to put me on lock down again. i said "i will take care of my own school on my own. i dont want any restrictions from you, i love my life now."

gaaah, she irritates me so bad.