Am I over analyzing this too much again? I do this all the time. Church and then not hanging out gets to me, I think. Is everything really okay? Jeez, I really wanna know because this is driving me up the wall. He talks cute and stuff, so what the hell is going on. I hate times like this...And I hate times when everything seems to be going really good. Because I prepare myself for that "I knew it was too good to be true" thing. Am I doing something wrong? Could I be or do something better? What if he's thinking about the whole age thing over again? What if Donna is being dumb with her big mouth? What if it's Zack. So many questions I would love to ask. But I feel like I'd be bugging him asking him all these questions that make me seem insecure. Even though I am extremely insecure. I keep it to myself though. >> I just woke up from a 3 hour long nap. It felt good, but I hate waking up. That's one of those things I really hate. But I'm up, and I ate some cereal, and now I'm talking to Cliff. It's going good, like it usually does, I just have my doubts. And maybe it's still because I'm afraid of him leaving me. And if I only give him so much of me, maybe if he does leave, it won't hurt as bad as it did when Brian did. < Because thathurt. I gave Brian my like entire heart. And he totally played it like a game....Anyways. Lyndsey inspired me to write a song on the piano. I usually use my guitar. But it's turning out really swell. I have like my first verse and chorus right now. It's really pretty. I hope the band likes it. I even added a minor in it, which totally sets the song off so good. Anyways, I think I'll go. I might write later if I need to vent again. >> AND