So i dream that i cheat on TC. i'm not a cheater. i'm really not. i wish i knew why i was doing this. I dont wanna be talking to this guy while im with tc!! this is what i really need to do, and i will eventually. when im strong enoughj. i will.

I will tell him this :

Look, i'm not supposed to have any sort of feelings for you, i'm not supposed to want to hide you from my boyfriend. it's not right. i cannot be around you or i am going to want to hide you because i want to get to know you in a more friendly way, and thats not good. i think it'd be best if we just didnt talk. if we do it just makes things harder. i'm sorry i led you on. i just cant do anything about this right now. i'm sory :(

it'll be something along those lines. i just really wish i could tell him!! and i cant :( im so dumbbb!!!! im hanging out with sarah tomorrow. i cant wait to talk to herrrr!

anyways, im here getting my car done and i hope it gets done really soon cuz im tired of sitting here! ive been here since like a little after 9 and its like 11 right now.

Anyways ill tyllllll:)