My mom makes me soo mad sometimes. Like, lately, me and her haven't been getting along. I don't even know why. It's like she thinks I'm a bad kid. Everytime I do something she makes these accusations about who I am or something. For example. 1.) I broke up with Graham and she takes me to couseling because she doesn't think I'm happy. At first I was like, well maybe she's right? But the counselor and I could not find a single thing wrong with me. I am happy. I shouldn't have let her make me doubt. I am very happy. I love school, my friends, my life. Everything is fine. 2.) She kinda figured that I like Zach. And so the other day she's like "I think your jealous of Tilicia and that's the only reason you like Zach so you can take something from her" I was like "okay?" Tilicia is my bestfriend and I'm going to do that? It would be different if she liked him, and she doesn't so it's whatever. And me and Zach like talk a lot on the phone and online and she thinks we're dating. She's like "You don't need to talk to him so much if he likes Tilicia...What's going on between you two" I'm like "well, besides the fact he's my bestfriend, he's my accountability partner and we're really close." She's like "whatever". I don't get her these days. It's like she thinks I have some secret life I'm not telling her about. Anyways...today was so long and I missed Zach like crazii. Isn't that funny how I can miss something I don't even have? I was going to call him sometime, but didn't really get a chance. But I'm talking to him online, so I'm happy. I was thinking today though, I really need to get over him. He doesn't like me and probably never will. You can tell when your friendship with a guy has hope or if is doesn't. Our friendship is more like, I'm his bestfriend and that's all. Ya know? But I think about him all the time and wonder what it would be like if we we're together, and then I get all disappointed because I know it's not going to happen. I told myself before we left the house I wasn't going to think about him on the entire trip. Only a few times did I do it though. But, I need to get over him...and soon...It's killing me. Anyways...it's late, and it's been a long day..so... ♥