Okay, time for me to spill. So, a lot of things have been goin down..Well, for the past week I guess, Tilicia and Sarah have been saying how I shouldn't be with Zach and stuff, and telling me the things I should and shouldn't be doing, and at first I was like "Am I doing something wrong?" I've thought about it a lot, but they've really pushed me over the edge. Today, they needed to talk to me and they were like "You won't take our advice so we're just not going to give you any anymore". I was like man, whatever. I am 15. I may be shaky on somethings, yes, but I am really tired of them telling me what to do. I know they have a good heart and want me to do the right things, but their right may not be my right. I am my own person. I have my own standards and morals and ways to live. If I mess up, and made the wrong choices then those are just lessons I learned. I gave them a cold shoulder for some of the day because I didn't even know how to respond to that. But I did talk to them, and we worked stuff out and we're cool. But it still got on my nerves. I think they've taken it to an extreme that never needed to be reached because this is really affecting our friendship. I was reading through all my saved emails and I read two that I saved from Beth. I almost cried when I read them. I soo miss those days. I was so young and pure and innocent. I was so open to teaching, so surrendered to Jesus. I miss those days a lot. I miss Believer's. I miss the youth group. I miss my youth pastor..I would've cherished those days more if I knew I'd be looking back wishing for them to last longer. I've got a lot I want to accomplish soon, and I do mean soon. But I have one main goal. I'm just trying to figure out how to..accomplish it. How to even start it. -sigh- There's a lot more I wanna get off my mind, but I don't know quite how to say it. I guess I'll entry later... ♥