yeaap, its july !
im very happy to report that me and josh are better than EVER. i was afraid it would only last a day? but its been allll week, and its still amazing. the few weeks before now, we had constantly been arguing to the point i thought we were going to break up. but, im not really sure what changed. i guess it finally hit him what he was doing. and ever since he's just soo sweet and nice and caring to me. we've been compromising things to make the other happy, and its paying off for real. we're both happier. spending time apart. we're both laughing more. he's laughing more. its just really good. he's understanding me a lot better than he was and knowing what to say when to say it to calm me down. now it seems like things are just clicking when before it seemed like we were forcing our relationship together. i cant tell you how extremely happy i am we worked things out.
tonight, he's at mooresville with zach & ronnie. i wish i could tell you all the feelings that have changed in me. like, ive never really worried about him cheating on me before, but now? its like i think that thought and laugh because i know he'd never do that to us. i can tell how much he loves me and wants to be with me. i mean, he may check out another girl, so what? i check out other guys too. but i know im the one hes texting, im the one he loves and is gonna come home to every night. i just know im the one. even if he buddies are douche bags, i dont worry about him doing anything to hurt me. and i cant describe how knowing that feels to me. but it feels so damn good. i have a boyfriend i dont have to worry about :] that makes me very happy.
work is going great. both of them are. my paycheck from texas was $128. i was like damnnn. and im getting paid tomorrow too. it should be $120 too. i finally have enough money to get my hair done and still have money left over. im sooo happy. i already have my apointment scheduled monday :] ive never worked so much in my liiiife. im so happy for my days off. i dont even want to do anything on my days off. just sit around at home and do NOTHING. i never thought i'd want to do nothing. i usually try to make plans with people lol.
school for the summer is almost over. i paid for my fall classes. im finally enjoying spanish. i think its because i found people who hate it just as bad as i do and find the people just as stupid as i do too. so now we all sit on the same row and talk shit about people all damn day. its great. math is alright. we're only going to get thru 4 of the 7 chapters we were supposed to do. which is because the people are so damn stupid. but im not complaining. less work and less hard math. aha. i cant wait for school to start. i mean, im not complaining. school starts at 12 for me and i go for like 2 hours everyday. everyday is like a summer day. i dont whatever the hell i want. college is pretty easy and going good for me. im getting all my classes for free & finishing up my freshman year in college. i need all the help i can get :]
tomorrow should be a pretty good day. college algebra is at 930 am. then im meeting taylor for lunch at panera at 12. getting my paycheck sometime after that. then with my babe that night. my moms gonna be gone almost alllll night. but it sucks cuz im on my period.. BUT. next friday..my mom and her friend linda are going to the beach. they're leaving at like 6am and she said coming back late that night. i WILL be period free & have the house to myself :] josh and i already have our plans too :] hehe, im pretty damn excited about it. wont have to worry about his parents or my mom or a time limit. we'll have all damn night in a nice quiet house away from people. yesssuh :]
anyways, ima get off hereeee
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