Things are good...and things are bad.

My mom and i really just have a hard time gettng along. We do. And I am so fed up with her shit i just fight back at her. Being with TC has made me see a lot about her. And I mean, i still love my mom, but she has problems. She is so so so controlling. Okay? Like, I supposedly got "grounded" for coming home too late one night and I was like so really nothing is going change, i don't do anything anyway. I'm not allowed! She always tells me I don't have any good friends well it's her fuckin fault. She's never, even since I was old enough to know what a sleep over was, she's never let me go to anyone's house or go with my friends to places. It always had to be them coming to my house. And now? That's impossible. ALL of the friends I have live in Kernersville. That's 30-40 minutes away. And the friends I've made at Middle College she won't let me hang out with until she meets them. You know how dumb that is? I'm not going to ask them to spend the night because I don't know them that well, and it's a waste of gas for them to drive down here just to fucking please my mom. Fuck that. She's the reason I have no friends. Besides that, she is so alsiraf. She cant stand not knowing what I am doing. Who I'm texting, why am I texting them..Why i got home 5-10 minutes late from school. "It's probably because i was having sex with tc". If i'm not where i'm "supposed" to be, she accuses me of being with tc or havng sex. And it's not ever that. If i don't call her right when i get somewhere because maybe i forgot then i'm "grounded". Or if she doesn't ground me she asks "well...whatre you doing?" It's like...I'm not doing anything i'm not supposed to so fuck off okay? Now when she accuses me of stuff i say yeah, okay, sure instead of saying no and begging her to believe me. What the hell is she going to do with i'm not under he rule anymore? I'm not gonna call her and tell her i'm going places, she will not be a part of my life in that way. I can do whatever the hell i want, and when i can, she's not going to know what to do. If she doesn't know what i'm doing its going to drive her crazy. I wish i could actually talk to her about things. I wish she was cool about stuff but she is so into religion that everything i do is a sin, and i must hate God and stuff. And thats not true. She apparantly doesnt know me, and honestly she doesnt. I don't talk to her about anything unless i have to. I try to keep busy so we're never in the same quiet room so there's no obligation to talk because whenever we are in that situation she brings up how horrible of a person i am because i had sex. And that was like over 10 months ago, and i'm still - still- a bad person and doing it everyday in the back of cars. She drives me crazy, and I'm getting more hard to it everyday. I will not put up with her. I am almost 17, i know what is right from wrong and i can make my own decisions pretty well. And just because i may do something she doesn't like doesnt mean i can't make good decisions. Whatever i decided was good to me and i'm not going to feel bad for it either. Enough of this now...

Laura cut my hair yesterday, it's raelly cute and tonight she's dying it. My mom thinks it's a subtle red but it's not. It's fire engine red. She's doing the peek-a-boo instead of highlights. I'm sooo excited!!

School is good, I have a research paper to write and then I'm done with my junior english and i'm also done with civics and all my history classes i just have to take the eoc:)

Me and TC are goooood:) 10 months last week! We've been doing so good, we haven't been arguing over dumb things at allllll! <3

Anyways, I have to hop in the shower . G'byeee