So need to vent :(

FIRST

Today I was really looking forward to just relaxing and spending time with Josh. Until I found out there's a car event tonight and some of my friends are going and I wanna go, but now I can't cause I have to hang out with Josh. And he wants me to sit at his house while him and his band practice. I don't want to sit there and have my ears bleed because you're playing loud ass music in a tiny ass house. Wtf? Later tonight though, HOPEFULLY, we are going to hang out with a few friends, build a bonfire and drink some hot chocolate. This situation made me realize how much I dislike being tied down like this. I just wanna spend time with my friends and have fun. Not be tied down and have to watch what I'm doing to make sure I'm being a quality girlfriend. (Not that we are dating, but we're talking, so you know what I mean.)

SECOND

I curbed the FUCK out of my tire. Thank GOD it didn't touch my wheel. If I had bigger rims it would have fucked it all to hell. I just sat in my car and was ready to go home and go back to bed. I was afraid to look >.<

THIRD

SIC is stressing me out and this is all caused by Sam no doubt. I should've listened to the people who told me to watch out for her. Here's the thing (and I do not mean to sound cocky at all). This is my group, under my name. I WILL do what I want with it. Now : If I were asking difficult tasks from them, I could see them having a problem or an issue, but I'm not asking hardly anything of them, and the things I am asking are simple as can be. It's just irritating she has planted doubt in Wendy and Nick and Chris's head now they are doubting me. I AM keeping the contract and they WILL sign it if they want to be in SIC. I mean, I'm acting as a free agent for them and not expecting any of their money from them. I will not change my mind. They will sign or resign. The end. I'm not going to stress over it, and if you don't want to sign, don't expect me to work for you.

FOURTH

I don't even know what is my fourth problem, I'm just in an ill mood, I want to go home, but I don't want to see my mom right now, I just want to be alone to relax and think and get everything ready for tomorrow morning.

FIFTH

Josh is like a HAWK over my page and what gets posted and what people say and what I say. He accuses me of flirting. I just don't see me and him lasting much longer in this courting thing. He's too possessive and shit. Which sucks, cause I do kind of like him.

I JUST DON'T KNOW :((((((