So...I didn't go to school today, I was so tired. I slept until 1! Anyways, I've decided that no matter what happens with the Zach thing, I'm not going to be mean. God kind of reminded me the same thing He reminds me when I get drama in my life. "If you're going to stay right with Me, you're going to stay right with those around you". I admit, that lately and before, I was afraid he was going to treat me like Tilicia, so I've been putting my guard up and ready to fight back. And I've probably been defensive and rude and maybe even revengeful. I know things maybe ended a little weird between me and him, and it may still be awkward, but I'm going to be nice to him. It's not one of those things where I'm trying to be nice or anything. I want to be nice to him. God wants me to. Yeah, I care about what he does still, but if he decides to date some other girl in the next two weeks, and I hear he's telling her how much he's in love with her and stuff, I'm not going to let it get to me. And when he flirts with another girl and people look at me and ask me if I'm okay with that, I'm going to say "Yes", very confidently. I have a life and I don't need to worry about what he does. God has something better for me. Anyways, so! Party again this weekend. I think Taylor's gonna be outta town so we are planning to go to Justin's place. If not Justin's though, we're coming to my house. Yay! I'm excited! >> Yeah, but Kim called me today and it's so sad. She's really hurt because her mom came home today and started cussing at her and hitting her for no reason she said. She told Kim church was dumb and she was at it too much. I feel realllly bad for her situation. But Betony and I told her to talk to her mom and if things went bad she could live with Betony. Betony's parents said it was okay too! So, I hope things work with her. JYSEIUABF. Dude, today Zach [ from church ] we're talking on AIM and he's like "You and Taylor should go outtt!" And I was like "Oh my gosh" lol. And he kept saying stuff. Then Betony IMed me like two minutes ago and she's like "So, you and Taylor would make a cute couple" Something is seriously going on...and I don't know about it. Everyone does but me. I dunno, lol. I told Zach I was threw with boys though lol. And I dunno, I don't want to get into another relationship. It can be stressful sometimes. Anyways, I'm keeping my ears open because I think something fishy is going on around church! <3