Well, last night he said he did want to give us a chance. That there was just something about me and he didn't know what to do. He wished I had more freedom like he does, but I guess freedom comes with age, and I'm not his age so. Yeah. And he really tried to convince me you know that it was going to work out, and I told him "Cliff, I am ALL for that, but I want to know you are. I realize I can't keep you waiting forever. It's just not fair." And he said "I know but there's just something about you, Alma, I don't know what it is yet, but I'll figure it out. Let's just take it slow and go from there." And I mean, I really hope he's doing it for himself because he wants to take that chance. Not because he felt like I pushed him to it. Because everything I said wasn't to push him that way. I just wanted him to know how I felt. Anyways, before we went to bed, I said "Let's sleep on it tonight just to be sure before we do anything." And he agreed. But all day I have been nausea like almost sick. I had to shove the food down my throat. I'm not hungry. I don't want food. I'm just so stressed or something. I can't wait until we talk. I'm just so afraid he's going to have rethought it and is going to say "I'm sorry, it just can't work out." I'm so scared right now. I'll write later