So scratch my plan on how to stay strong with God. I tried to stick to it, but I realized some things. Most importantly, I wasn't under conviction so it didn't even mean anything. Secondly, I'm not in control..God is. I had been sitting there like "God, this is what I'ma do." And really, I should be asking Him what He wants me to do. I feel really out of control. Not in a bad way, but kind of in a good way. I feel really childlike. Me and Tilicia talked a lot about God tonight, and she encouraged me too. Her and Sarah are like, ah, so great. They are such encouragements, and especially now they have really been there for me and stuff. I don't really know what to do. I really want to know God again..I know, I say that a lot, but I really do. I don't know, I really need to figure some stuff out too...I think I'ma talk to God about it. Tilicia said He would be happy to hear from me since I haven't talked to him in a while... So..I guess I'll write later ♥