So...it's late and I don't really have a point to writing right now but..oh well. I would be talking to Zach but I told him I was going to bed but then I got up and my mom and I were talking and now he's gone and I dunno if he's asleep or not...I've missed him so much. We haven't seen each other since...Wednesday. And our plans to see each other always fall out. Gr. He might be coming to church tomorrow night. I sure hope so. I wanna see him so bad! I miss him like craziii. Last night we were up until 3:30 in the am. Then we finally decided to call it a night, and I fell asleep in the chair with my clothes and everything still on. About 7 I woke up and went to bed. It was fun though. Last night with my mom was not fun though. We went shopping late at night and we were not on good terms so the entire time out was like awkward. Then she was like "Alma, I don't even know who you are anymore. It's like you live in your own little world now". And I was like "Oh". I mean..I thought about it that night and I guess she's right. She probably doesn't know me well anymore because I've shut her out of my life. I'm tired of being who she wants me to be. I'm tired of being the perfect nice girl. I want to be my own person. I wanna make my own damn mistakes. I wanna do whatever I wanna. I'm sick of asking her if this is okay..or if that's okay. It's my life. I'm gonna do it like I wanna do it. I'm going to make my own choices. She's gonna have to get over it. -sigh- I guess I just want to grow up some and I don't know how to give her the hint without hurting her. Oh well... I'ma make a new entry for the next thing I wanna talk about now...