last night josh tells me he had something new on his car and i would have to wait til today to see it. and he wouldnt tell me. well today i asked if anyone at his work noticed it. and so for some reason? i thought what he had done was for me..

okay, so today he was like "no, no one has seen it." i was like "well, im just saying, but if its another one of your works in progress that qualify more money spent on your car i douby i will be happy. secondly, i thought for some reason what you did was for me..ha, i know better than that." he was like "well i just wont tell you stuff like that anymore from now on." i said "how did i alredy know." he was like "you just wanna argue." i said "just forget i even asked, i just wanted to know. its not the first time ive been upset about it and it wont be the last."

im so bummed out. ive just wanted to cry for the last two days. and its not one specific thing. its like all these things. and i cant handle them all.

got work. then school.