Omfg. So, Zach asks me if I wanna go to the movies so I ask my mom and she asks questions like "What time?" "When?" "Who's going" Etc, and so me and him both think I'm going. Then she's like "No, you can't go" I'm like pissssed. So was Zach. She pisses me off so bad. But like, I dunno, I was really pissed, and then my mom was like "Are you gonna speak to me tonight?" I'm like "I dunno" And I told her I was pissed because like a few days after me and Graham started dating he asked me to go to Charlotte and my mom didn't care one bit. That's what makes me so mad. I can't spend time with the one I seriously loveee one day? Omg. F'real too okay? Gah, I wish I could take back all those fucked up moments with Graham and put them with Zach. I would do anything to do that....Anyways, after I told her that, she was like well it was too far away, maybe some other time. I was like "Yeah, I'm sure" But she was like "No, next time if it's closer you can go" So..atleast I'm getting the privilege to go somewhere with him now. I can't wait for my liscence... You know what really bugged me today? All the couples at the mall. I see them and I'm like god, I would give anything to have the privilege to be that with Zach. I know he says he can wait, but honestly. I know it makes him mad that we can't hold hands and shit. I mean, I know if we can wait 'til maybe February my mom would be willing to say yes. But omg. What the hell is holding hands going to do? It really bugged me today. Because I want us to be able to do that and my dumbass mom is being...a dumbass. Have you guessed my mood yet?.....Yeahhh Hm..Well, I needed to get that off of me...I'ma go now. -----