I think I'm giving up on Zach...I dunno, I'm just so tired of trying to be the girl he likes. I hate being the bestfriend. He says stuff like..idk, why does he tell me to call him...why does he wait for me until i get my stuff packed and we walk to our next class together...why does he tickle me and lay his head on me...why did he talk to nick about me? why does he always IM me when i come back from away or as soon as i sign on...why does he do that? I guess just because we're so close? Like I said, I hate being the bestfriend sometimes...I've always been friends with the guys. And sometimes I feel like they think I could never like a guy, and they use me to get to other girls. I know Zach isn't intentionally doing that. But he is all I think about anymore. I cannot wait to go to school now. It's like, I rush my mom to get home so I can talk to him online. Then when it's around 10 or so we call each other and talk. I try to stay on the phone as long as I can so the amount of time I sleep is short so I wake up sooner. I wake up as soon as the TV comes on and try to look extra cuter today than yesterday..Does that even matter? I hate lunch and 5th period because I don't get to see him, but get dressed for 6th as fast as I can so I can see him again. We always sit together and walk to our classes together. I adore that. Today, I got so bummed out because all that I just said doesn't even cross his mind. I try so hard for nothing. Let's face it. I like him...but he likes her. Nothing I can stop or prevent. I'm still trying to figure out what to do next. I don't think I'm going to tell him. No way. I just need to figure out how to get him off my mind because he's always there. ♥