im my life i have understood, the type of person i've become.. and still becoming, when i thought loneliness was the safe bet. i became. very Independent. As a child ive learn to keep people away, they will only hurt and disappoint me. Ive meet people who have the perfectly life. and im happy for them. most of all im happy to be in their life. As im here at the age of 23, they all thought id fuck up by now. with thinking i was in love with my first. and now the next step is marriage. and blah.. I want a love that is... deep inside me.. and for me to post it on here is silly. im just babbling, on and on. wheni write in here im usaully in a lonely mood.a nd i love to wright,m also my hand doesnt cramp as much on here.