clench my fist and scream for hatred ,bleedin from the inside out!! can you feel the nails going down my back from someother guy,do you scream out of love or did you even know how to love, before you, i would run away far drifting thinking it will all go away , i caved in, my thoughts were all just a fase,thinking og dreams i thought i might have a chnace to live. i was wrong you made me scream crys for 3 months and 11 days never stopping to think im hurt others. with a knife i use to want to cut of my heart and give it to you but i let myself fall into a lie i let my walls come down and i let my my feelings feel once again,i dont know how you got a hold of my heart with your arms wrapped around it and tight force toa nd squeezed me to death. you killed me. i was broken for a year finally i got the strength to live a life once agin i was always affraid of those whod come too close. id run away from my mother my family my friends were never true to me always wanting me to slip slip from gravity. i have wakened up in tears fearing of my nightmares with hate and heartbreak inside a dream that might come true,when i close my eyes thats when i get scared. with someone new knowing he grab every my everything and he is the reason why iam here breathing this air, i may not be everything i wish i could be but he loves me for who i am.I want you to know i found something i thought id never have a chance hes the reason im starting all over,im not sorry that i have hurt you your an ex for soo many reASONS.i was the one that caught all your tears you just pushed me away so now im thanking y7ou ,you is what i never wanted he is everything i wanted..he name is jared and he'd never hurt me and neither will you