today was a boring day so far...sittin here bored to death i feeel sick and shitty though on monday i have an interview at fort gary hotel im excited but i probabaly wont get the job... but im still going to try.......me and jared are goin pretty good, man do i love that kid ao much. he frustrates me cus he cant open up as much as iam. but i kinda get him and he has told me things he has never told anyone before. i feel lucky...but i have admit he doesnt do everythingi thought he would do to me this makes sense to other they may not understand but i know what im talkin about...lol im scared that jared locks tings in way too much....and explodes on little things then i freak so that why we have been fighting.we have cried together showin emotions i thought id never beable to show....