forgotten with beauty cream spread all over my frayial face, i become something i never thought id be. sipping his money wanting me to fail cave in so here i am tightly squeezing my eyes shut up i begine to remember all you have done for me, i miss you and all your asshole ways i need youa nd want you to hold me olate at night and kiss my hips like you use to,make me scream until the sun comes up. i scream in terror wishing for you to come and save me,tell me everything ive been waiting to hear from you and i cant deny that i love your abuse ive swore id pull the trigger and make you fanish but my heart always stops me. id rather die than tell you whats written on my heart, im so sick and infected let me live without this selfishness,we can push out sell out die out-i want to live without this ach in this heart i own,do you hear me screaming telling you over and over how much i love you but my lips stay shut. i tremble tears are nothing but waterfalls when i think of you,. im sick and twisted i wish i could just ignore all of this.