Here it comes i can feel it again, this isnt the first time you left me crying..i saw this coming,but i still let you in. So take all your empty thoughts and broken promises... ive tryin to make a change. I cant stand the way you live with your self everyday.. everywhere i go everytime i try to fall in love they wonder why im soo scared and the scarey thing is i dunno why iam frithened. You scream pity in my face as i just gasp for oxygen i feel the pain draining my body.. iknew i shouldnt of had said anything, but from all the years of confusion and agony i explode and tears come screaming out my face...I iwll never understand why i let you in sometime... for years i was my best friend always alone afraid to love a male cus i have seen all there mistakes with you. I hate you so much buty you are my mom ... i give back what you put in and you scream yell and tell me im wrong i know nothing and as you stress these things i get thrown tot he ground without notice and you kick me when im down i cant believe you call yourself a mother everywhere i go for the rest of my life... they all will want to know what is wrong with me why i have this wall up.. and its becasue of you the one i thought i could trust but i did was get hurt int he end im sick of how you treat me differently infront of others your soo different. and i hate you mom