i love her her iet her in becuz ilove her she ismy mother, tho she does not understand the values a mother is suppose to ahve show to her children..i can never count on her and i use to get beaten to the pulp..its hurts to know my own mother hates me..the hatred the burns inside of her.. is becuz of my own father..was a dickhead..why is this still happening to me i was free for a whole year i learn soo much and it all feels liek i lost it with one thought everything was erased and i cant go back.. im all alone again.. know one understands her but i wish i could just beloved for me..the things i say are to bold for some..i just moved back in after all she kicke dme out and told be to fuck right off and toleave alone i never had a father...jareds mom showed me so much i miss her... she is threatin to kick me out again..why am i not wanted, im hurt and back where i started...i cna never understand her she rips me to pieces and no one will ever understand why i let her in over and over she is all i have...