trapped inside these walls,screaming kicking in these fears stuck underneath me i have soo much more than others,yet they dont know i fall down everynight crying screaming for no more she yells screams scares me to death thinking will it be all my fault when she is gone,should i fall into her trap and be blind pretend iam fine, I hate never knowing what to do in these fights, i cry and cry she is tough raw she is my mother, the memories iw ill never share with my kids i will put on this fake smile to make her happy, happy is something iam not,i have someone who loves me but is not sure what to do.he is the only one that puts this in my eyes "love" Maybe tomorrow i will know what i should do to this nightmare i call life...when she trys to comfort me i get awkward not sure what is next,she blames me for her misery.... i have soo many questions ...with no answers