This night was fucking scarey, me and jared went over to the guys house and we hung out but lately ive notice something odd about jared, i just couldn't get him to say what was wrong so finally this night we were do some drugs and he started saying all this shit i was lik eum what the hell i wanted to cry,inside i was crying in pain. i always blame myself in these things. a week ago i thought we needed a break and i have asked him this many times and he was fine now all of a sudden he wants a break, and this weekend comin up he is goin to stonewall to get really fucking drunk with trevor maybe im just acting stupid but i dunno i feel kinda like im in his face too much... I love him soo much so i was upset that i could come with him to stonewall so imm lettin him go...