Im not sure of all of this this morning i was ont he bus as per usual. i always see random people stare for no reason, You get use to it all when you on the bus everyday but anyways this guy kept on looking at me i htought nothing of it. and he kept on moving seats getting closer and closer to me. And me being me i ignore pretending i saw nothing tho it was right infront of my face. and this guy was not a good looking guy. but i give the guy credit for trying and explaining his life to a totally stranger who was ignoring him in the first place. He asked me the famous Question do you have a boyfriend i looked away with a pause and said im see Someone. Yet Clearly no matter how many time i get i asked out i still say no . it difficult cus i have no idea why i always say no...but i do it is okay i think sometimes i just dont want worry about him out and about the haunting thought of him not wanting me anymore, Ihave been shattered too many times so day it will be okay i will allow another in. Just not now anytime soon. ANd when i meet him i will hopfully know. tho sometimes i wonder iam too stuburn to let him in? Have said no to the one whom may make me happy? My exes have re asked me out over again i stand there in a memory and smile then look away i want something new fresh exciting.