its so hard for me to stay stable.. i lay under the sheets and hurt light up a joint to make me sleep better.. i have some much to understand i ask myself why... i dont want anyone..but you im not use to the fact of bein without you.. the other day i was goin through somethings that you wrote me.. and i remember you tellin me ,tryin to convince me .theres no such thing as in forever..lol i always that it would be you till forever.. im scared of what i may become now..she hurts me and pretends so much error... i dont know why i cant go out and have fun..ive been asked out to go on dates and other fun things youd think id want to do to get you off my mind..but you see how can i when i love someone soo much my feeelings are too strong right now...its sad to know that you dont love me..and i cherish you will i know i can keep my word thats for sure...