My heart was always lingering here at the end of my sleeve. It was too much pain to beg so these silent tars, and how much i miss you, when you are near.. we both wnat it all and always allow it to float away.

and when i wimper in the night, holding it all inside. never will to admit. the pain. and for the sake of me i will look you in those beautiful eyes of yours. and lie... and im only lying to myself. and the fact of it all is i could have you. but my heart is in control. i want to believe i date boys, that dont have a clue.. what im running from. I hold on tight to any boy. That adores me .. the intoxicating buzz i have. but through and through i know they all can see it. i slept another day away. and when the world is out and about. i fade further and further. When i see an old picture i remember the old you. and forget the old me... I know i love you and hold you when you willing to but to give you it all back...