you were the one to save me form this nightmare i lived for years now im back here where i started.. and i have no escape i feel trapt and i wish i had you. but i know im bad for you and im drowning form all this ...she yells and screams and spits on me and i will not let it go..but its not fair why .. i forgot all the mean careless things she does and rips my dreams from my mind and i cant ignore this..not even a month ago iwas able to have piece of mind.. im goin insane and im still the bad guy..why must she twist shit up im wrecking my brain...i use to live somethng different... i had you but you werent for me.. and as time goes by i know.. im tired of this i thought it would be okay but you see im still the one who abuses her and makes her life miserble and i cant hide anymore..ive been livin here for not very long and she already threatens me to leave and she doesn give a fuck..i wish i had someone who cared ..and would have me forever..lonelyness is what killed me beofre a certain him, days i feel like im nothing and you are everything and i cant handle this a stranger treats me better than her... with you i had dignity with you i felt smart with you i was beautiful with her im nothing with her im ugly with her i have nobody ] you took me and held me and touched me with you i knew myself.. i wish i wasnt alone..