okay well this week alone was very bad week for me, me and jared have been fighin because im stressed out from school lookin for a job ,my fucking crazy mother who wont leave me alone, so last nite m and jared went to go return his book from the libarary.. and the we were gonna go get some DQ then go to mkes . welll we went to the libarary and must of said something wrong to piss him off next thing i knew he was takin a fit and walkin away from me, this always happens here nver a dull moment im always fuckin something up. So whatever he came back and used his famous line... *silence then he acts llke nothing happen and says 'Whats Up'?... i say what do you mean whats up wtf??? do you realize what you just did? no becasue jared never is wrong grrrrrrrr he makes me mad!!!!!! Okay to shorten this long ass story, if orgave him and then we were walkin to the bus stop and i said something..lol like always and he yelled and laughed in my face like always and took off again... as i sat there hurt burnin with hate i wanted to die i had nobody and nothing i cried and cried wishing one day i will stop crying....probabaly bnot though. so then i sat there guy asked me if i was ok and i said ya, i just really need a friend.so the l8er on jared comes back andf satnds there not sayin anything cus why should JARED WAYNE BROWN SAY SORRY he is never in the wrong. i looked up and was disgusted with him i scream and pushed him out of the way and i told him to get the fuck out of my life ..and then i took off i cried cried and still had no one...jared followed m all the way to radisson school i was sittin in the park gather ing my thoughts wishing all this was a bad dream, jared trys to talk to me but i gnore him ....cus all he does is put me down make me feel like shit cus im not workin ...and he pays for shit i need and want, i ftell him everyday dont dont do this your hurtin me dont you realize anything !!!!!!! he always laughs in myface tells me what to i should or shouldnt do ...like fuck off i have my own mind and i will do things MY WAY!!! why not you do your shi your way.. i find that he is kind of controling...but i dont i dunno i love the fuck soooooooooo much