its saturday, alot has happened, at the assembly there was this guy named Leroy, he is suppose to help people, i told him about me, and he gave me the worst look, he judge me then disappeared. he is a jerk. i hate him with all my heart. he doesn't even remember me. Last night i got in a fight with my mother. it wasn't very bad. but i was upset. i went upstairs and i broke a pencil sharpner and i cut myself. not very deep, but enough to numb the emotional pain. i sat there for a while. then i put on a sweatshirt and went downstairs. my mom knew. usually she closes her eyes to it. but she knew. i am not sure what i am going to do, maybe i will just keep it a secert like i always do. yeah i will do that. talking usually causes more pain. I went cavassing today. i got 5 dollars. i went to like 10 houses. it is unbelievable how selfish people are. ugh i started crying because of it. i just let go. i feel like candy. i am going to get some. Life really is a BITCH! i hate life. i see all these children and it sucks because they are going to either love life or hate it. i am going to watch bmx joust with the EVER SO HOT bam margera because i feel like laughing.