Well, i went to school today, against my will. I have missed so much school. i hope i don't fail classes. i don't care as long as i get higher then 50. anything else is fine. I tried to change my backround because it is pissing me off, because like 3 people have it. Ugh. i can't stand being the same as everyone else. Yet it scares me to be different in some things. Isn't that just fucked?! lol Yesterday i talked to some good friends about how i was feeling. except the one lives far away and the other goes to a different school. so they understand, but not fully. but i guess no one can understand fully because i don't even understand fully. My sister is moving into her new apartment today. I am glad because her old apartment was scary. Full of drug dealers and drunks. She is moving into a really nice apartment with her best friend. I am helping her move after school. So most of the work will be completed.(lol) It is pretty cool because she is moving in with a girl she has known shes junior kindergarden. They fought alot at first, they are like sisters. so alike. Anyway. My mom will be babysitting her cat today so the cat doesn't get in the way. That was my idea. Last night went so incredibly fast. It was weird. Hours seemed like minutes. lol usually its the other way around. I have a really hard frrench test today, and it isn't fair because i wasn't here yesterday, so i should take the easy test from yesterday today, and the hard one tomorrow. but my teacher is an asshole and will just make me do the test on the chapter i didn't read. stupid bitch. I can't wait for this to be all over, and it to be summer, and i won't have to think about school or exams or friends. i can just relax at home and watch movies. I have so many entries. man its outragous. i didn't think i had that many. Well maybe its not alot to some, but its a hell of alot to me. I have to continue and finish my novel during the summer. I have 14,300 words. i wonder how many words a normal teen novel is? Anyone know? Like anyone will answer. I wish i was sleepiing right now. i wish i was dreaming right now. i love dreaming. i love day dreaming. it is the greatest feeling. even though i know it isn't reality and it will never be. I haven't had a crush on someone since last year. I have given up wasting my time on someone who doesn't even know or care i exist. I have given up on trying to be their friend or be apart of their lives only to be used. Assholes. All men are assholes. well, not all. I only know 3 guys that aren't. but one has been acting very faintly like one lately. Makes me sick. I swear this summer i am going to change, i am going to be different, so when i get back to school next year, people will be like, "whos that?" and i could be like "oh wouldn't you like to know asshole" lmao, then again, i say this every year. My thoart feels like shit. I can barely talk. I am in tech and i am working on the stupid Career Presentation. I hate this class. I had hoped it would be so cool. But the teacher doesn't even know how to type with both hands. He uses his index finger. Loser. I can be so mean sometimes, but i guess its just me letting lose some emotions i keep locked inside. thats why i love this site. I watched the dumbest movie on the weekend, it was called "Club Dread" i thought it was going to be really funny. and some of it was, but mostly it was just stupid. ugh. waste of money I also watched this CSI with a really hot guy i am totally inlove with guest starring. Oh lala Jeremy Renner. i love him lmao. i am such a loser. I am hoping today will be a good day. I highly doubt it. Science will be shit because i will probably get the test back from friday which i more then likely failed. Math will be crappy because it will confuse the shit out of my and my friend will stall to give me the notes i missed because he is being weird for some reason. Then i will go home and have to help move some fricking boxes. Then i will go back home and thinking about doing homework, but then io won't and feel horrible about it tomorrow. Thats going be my day. It's only fucking 10 to 9. Shit i have 25 minutes left. i am just to going mess around on some sites. and pretend i am working.