people fucking piss me off. why can't they all go away and die. i know. it sounds harsh. but jesus christ. Why does everything have to be so difficult. i mean. grr. i dont even know what i'm doing anymore. this is another whiney fuckin post. cuz thats how i'm feeling. what the fuck is the matter with me? what the fuck is the matter with everyone. i want to just go out, get trashed and forget everyone. but i'm a big loser and i'm not. fuckin hell. this has alot of fucks in it. oh well. that's cuz i'm feeling so fucking hardcore. haha. see that's how much of a loser i am. haha. i just wish i could change so many things. i wish i could go back and make things better. i hate being such a people pleaser sometimes. i don't even know what to do now. i'm just walking in circles. like a fucking chicken with his head cut off. lol. grusome i know. i need a car. then things would be better. if i had a car, and i could drive. yup. that would make things easier. but alas. i can't. so i'll just sit here. fucking wallowing in this mood. and then go away and kill myself cuz i'm that cool. haha Much Fucking Love. Sam.